i'm too grumpy to say hi to anyone reading this right now so don't take it personally.

i'm in such a bad mood with business studies (i'm in too bad a mood to even LAUGH at how stupid it is to be grumpy with business studies and that's saying something) There's some fucking annoying twat (apologies to all those people out there who go gasp shock horror splutter choke at the mention of the f word but i'm too fucked off right now to give a shit. so actually that apology is insincere and yes you have been wasting your time reading this) outside my dorm now WHISTLING and i feel like strangling that person till they choke and die a painful long drawn out death. And then i'd pull out their insides through their mouth and make them into potentailly trendy but hopelessly tacky window blinds to BLOCK OUT THE FRIGGIN sunshine which is ruining my very black day.

there's mocks coming up and i really should be revising and i know i've said this ever since before half term but i'm in a bad mood so i'm going to whine for as long as i want to. then i shall indulge myself in a sinful session of self-pity before taking a long shower where i WILL sing sad mournful songs about nothing loudly in an annoyingly off pitch key. if i get slightly more upbeat i might tap along but i highly doubt it.

usually i'd politely speculate about how much fun everyone in singapore must be having since their exams are almost over but right now i'm in such a self indulgent and selfish mood i'm not going to bother.

if you want to know part of the reason for all this moodiness try typing out the details of 14 IMAGINARY people in a database THREE TIMES because you made the SLIGHTEST mistake each time. and then u'd probably realise that that shouldn't really fuck you off THAT much so try having to ALTER all that data because "oh someone moved house. excitement" AND then be told "oh wait your previous data was incorrect" retype everything again. ALL THIS AFTER SOMEONE TOLD YOU THAT IT WAS ALL CORRECT. so i've been staring at this DATABASE SPREADSHEET for a bit more than an hour making very minute changes to everything.

so yes i know that's not a good reason to be so upset but i'm an impatient bugger who's also not had the best day, no best week, wait no best day. yes. so there really is not reason for me to be upset so i'll credit it all down to hormones or something.

we had a careers seminar last night and that was borderline interesting. the doctor who came in to speak was pretty good and he made med school seem quite fun. he also had something secret going on with the geog teacher so that was also quite interesting. the glaxosmithklyne crap about research was possibly more boring than the history of an orange so don't even get me started on that. i've come to the conclusion that research isn't the job for me. i think i'll become a surgeon.

i know that this entry is complete teenage angst and overflowing with stereotypical teenage girl stupidity but i managed to con a few of you into reading it so give me some credit. if anyone is up for screaming "i hate business studies" be quiet because i want to do it first and i want to be the only one doing it. and i also still want solid gold toilet accessories and to drive a monster truck and a bunch of other obscenely expensive and impractical things. so sue me for being whiny and annoying.

i'm going to grumpily press the done button on this, probably read all of this entry when i've cooled down, become so embarrassed that i actually managed to crap out such a large pile of bullshit and send out mass apology slips for ever having polluted the web with such a monstrosity.

but until then u're gonna have to live with this. tough.

er bye?